Having said that, I'd like to tell you something.
I don't like everyone.
It's not that I want them dead, or I wish them ill. There are just some people I'd like to see disappear.
Now imagine you're standing outside. The sun is shining, the birds singing. Standing next to you is a 5 foot tall pencil with an 8" eraser. Suddenly, along comes someone who annoys you-someone who grates on your nerves or exasperates you. You look at her, pick up your handy dandy pencil, point the eraser in her direction and rub the air. voila! She's gone. It's like she never existed at all.
The other morning #3 woke up and told me he'd had a rough night. Apparently at 1:30 am he'd received a text message. He couldn't remember the whole thing, but it was long and disturbing and it came to the wrong phone. Here's the gist of what it said:
Where are you dad??
You could at least call me!
It's been a month since I've heard from you! Why
don't you communicate?? This is no way to treat
your daughter! (on and on it went...)
Needless to say, it took my son awhile to go back to sleep after that.
When he told me what the text had said, I didn't want to erase the poor girl's father. I wanted to pick up my handy-dandy 5 foot long pencil and beat him over the head with it. I have been mourning for that girl all week and I've never laid eyes on her.
If I could talk to her father I'd give him a piece of my mind. (Especially since it seems his has gone missing.)
I'd tell him children are a gift, no matter how old they are. God entrusted them to our care and we play a huge role in their lives until their life is no more. I'd tell him he is a selfish brute and then I'd stop him in his tracks. I'd force him to look at his daughter...I'd ask him to look deeply and closely and see the vulnerable little girl hiding behind her desperate heart. I'd say a few more things I probably shouldn't type out here...
Then perhaps I'd stop. After I'd dented my pencil a few times over his head I'd take a deep breath and look at him. I'd look deeply and closely and I'd wonder about the vulnerable little boy hiding inside. What happened to you? I'd wonder. Who hurt you so badly you are unable to love? To care? Are you maybe treating your daughter the way you were treated? Or, are you truly just that selfish and ugly inside?
Then I think I'd grab a bible and show them that although she doesn't have the perfect father, and I doubt he's ever been one, we have One who is. He knows everything about them. (Psalm 139:1)
He is not distant and angry-He is the perfect loving Father. (John 3:16)
He gives and loves more than any earthly Father could. (Matthew 7:11)
He loves with an unending love. (Jeremiah 31:3)
His plan for their future is filled with hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
Everything good that happens in their lives is actually from Him. (James 1:17)
If they would seek Him with all their hearts they would find Him. Unlike some dads we know... (Deuteronomy 4:29)
He longs to comfort them in all their troubles. (2 Corinthians 1:3-4)
He is close to those who have desperate, broken hearts. (Psalm 34:18)
If they would allow Him to be their Father, He promises one day to take away all their pain and wipe away every tear. (Revelation 21:3-4)
I'd tell them I'm not perfect, (his lumpy head being living proof) and they are not perfect. We are all sin-filled people and separated from God because of that. (Romans 3:23)
Jesus, His one and only Son, died so that they could one day stand before God, forgiven. (2 Corinthians 5:18-19)
His death was God's end all expression of His love for them. (1 John 4:10 and/or Romans 5:8)
If they would receive the gift God gave them, His Son, they would never be separated from His love again. (Romans 8:38-39)
God wants to know if they would like to be His children. (John 1:12-13)
He is patiently waiting for them....(Luke 15:11-32)
If you'd like to see exactly what those bible verses say but you don't own a bible, click here and you can read them on-line.
What holds true for that girl and her missing dad holds true for you and it holds true for me.
God has become my Father and healed my broken, desperate heart. He wants to do the same thing for you, if that's what you need....if that's what you long for....
all it takes is talking to Him. Telling Him you know you've blown it, maybe big time. Did you there is no sin too big or too ugly? His love is sweet and perfect. (Romans 8: 38-39)
Then you tell Jesus you need Him. Tell Him you can't take one more step without Him and thank Him for dying in your place. Ask Him to forgive you for your sins and ask Him to make you the kind of person He wants you to be. It's that simple.
And then, from that moment on, you have access to the perfect Father. You can talk to Him any time and trust Him to love you and always be available. He will never leave you and He will certainly never, ever beat you over the head with a giant pencil...