January 3, 2008

I'm Back....I Think....

It's been so long since I've written anything that I now feel almost shy about being back on my own blog. Like it's a friend I've neglected and I am now trying to worm my way back into it's affections.
It's been so long since I've written anything that I now have no idea what to write about.....
I took a long break from reading blogs and writing. Blogging is an emotional roller coaster when you think about it. You read other peoples' thoughts and feelings and read about their experiences and you either react to their writing or relate with their writing. Then you write something on your own blog and wait for all those elusive comments and hope that maybe this time the lurkers will think you finally wrote something worth commenting on. Your emotions go uuuupppppp, and your emotions go ddoooowwwwnnnn. I'm still tired of the ride, but another part of me needs to write. So, I am back. I think.
I've had a rough 3 weeks-I was an emotional wreck. Sometimes when I get like that I "crawl into a hole" inside my head where it's "safe" and quiet and camp out until it passes. I don't socialize. I don't reply to emails. I avoid the phone. Maybe I just sometimes need to fall back and regroup. There were several times in the last few weeks where I came within a click of just deleting the whole blog. I was even too down in the dumps to click on the mouse...
Anyway-this afternoon the cloud finally started to lift. I still feel a bit weary and wobbly, but I do think the cloud is moving away. However, like I said, I have no idea what to write about. At least you know why I haven't posted anything in awhile.
We start school again Monday. Maybe my bloggy brain will come back with the school books....

6 comments:

  1. I, for one, am glad to see you here. I have been thinking about you, and "email J" has been on my to do list for ever so long. (I know I haven't actually emailed, but being on the list counts for something, right?) Your blog has helped me and provided much needed wisdom and insight. I appreciate you. Love, Rachel

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  2. (((Hugs))) I think we all feel that rollercoaster of putting yourself out there, waiting for the comments...Thanks for sharing your thoughts and experiences!

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  3. Sometimes we just need to exhale, de-escalate and veg (especially after the holidays). I'm glad to see you're back. I don't mind if it's slow. I just missed you :-)

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  4. I can completely relate. Once, when I realized how much I was looking for comments and allowing myself to affected by what others were writing or not writing on their own blogs, I took a week off to identify and clarify why I actually write. Now, I go back to that post and remind myself that my writing is TO the Lord and FOR the Lord, however He might use it.

    I'm so glad you are back! Thanks for sharing what is going on in your life and the wisdom God has given you. It has helped me so much!
    Love,
    Jen
    PS Did you get my reply e-mail?

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  5. I'm sorry! I've had those times too. Glad you are feeling better.

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  6. So is it safe to come home yet? ;)

    Ben

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